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I guess this is where I say I was wrong. People don't ever change, it's silly to think that they could.

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I haven't been able to sleep. I think Marlene saw me starting to cry, yesterday. She didn't ask, but, she doesn't need to see that. I should be a better example, be able to move on. It's not the end of the world.

. . . I just. I thought I knew what I was doing. I thought I had everything under control, but he had just tricked me and manipulated me into thinking that. I should have realized.
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pwns_farplane
Mar. 30th, 2008 07:08 pm (UTC)
... I never thought that I would hear you say such a thing.
xfinal_heaven
Mar. 30th, 2008 07:09 pm (UTC)
Me either. But, after what happened, you could say I've got a lot less faith.
pwns_farplane
Mar. 30th, 2008 07:11 pm (UTC)
Odd how time progresses; one finds themselves on the opposite side of what they once thought.
xfinal_heaven
Mar. 30th, 2008 07:14 pm (UTC)
Mmm, yeah. But, I guess that's change, isn't it? Which I guess disproves my point. Hn. Maybe we can only change to a certain extent, and only if we're willing.
pwns_farplane
Mar. 30th, 2008 07:17 pm (UTC)
When did hope become so tainted?
xfinal_heaven
Mar. 30th, 2008 07:18 pm (UTC)
When your boyfriend tried to take advantage of Rufus.
pwns_farplane
Mar. 30th, 2008 07:19 pm (UTC)
I beg your pardon?
xfinal_heaven
Mar. 30th, 2008 07:20 pm (UTC)
I'm somehow not surprised that he didn't tell you. At least it makes me feel better for not being the only one who missed it.
pwns_farplane
Mar. 30th, 2008 07:21 pm (UTC)
Why can I not refute it? Is this the source of your melancholy, Tifa?
xfinal_heaven
Mar. 30th, 2008 07:23 pm (UTC)
He had me fooled, but really, he isn't very discriminate about who he'll be with.
pwns_farplane
Mar. 30th, 2008 07:27 pm (UTC)
... Kadaj finally got what he wanted, did he not? Tifa ... there are points where you are a much better woman than I.
xfinal_heaven
Mar. 30th, 2008 07:51 pm (UTC)
It doesn't matter if he got what he wanted, he's a bastard. He and Rufus both.
pwns_farplane
Mar. 30th, 2008 07:55 pm (UTC)
... Did Kadaj brag to you about this?
xfinal_heaven
Mar. 30th, 2008 07:56 pm (UTC)
No. I've been avoiding them both. Kadaj wasn't the only one Rufus almost slept with.
pwns_farplane
Mar. 30th, 2008 07:58 pm (UTC)
... Tifa.
xfinal_heaven
Mar. 30th, 2008 08:00 pm (UTC)
Yeah?
pwns_farplane
Mar. 30th, 2008 08:02 pm (UTC)
... Never mind. Perhaps, Rufus was not the one for you; someone better will come along. A person like you deserves that much.
xfinal_heaven
Mar. 30th, 2008 08:03 pm (UTC)
Maybe . . . it doesn't really feel like that right now, you know? Hm, I guess it will pass, you're probably right.
pwns_farplane
Mar. 30th, 2008 08:05 pm (UTC)
It will wrench at your heart.
xfinal_heaven
Mar. 30th, 2008 08:08 pm (UTC)
It already has.
pwns_farplane
Mar. 30th, 2008 08:10 pm (UTC)
I can do little to help; it is partly my fault.
xfinal_heaven
Mar. 30th, 2008 08:11 pm (UTC)
It's in no way your fault, Yunalesca. The blame is Rufus' alone.
pwns_farplane
Mar. 30th, 2008 08:12 pm (UTC)
And Kadaj's. The boy knew that I was awaiting for his return - that ... person.
xfinal_heaven
Mar. 30th, 2008 08:13 pm (UTC)
What . . . do you mean?
pwns_farplane
Mar. 30th, 2008 08:17 pm (UTC)
He swore to me that he would never see Rufus ShinRa again. He did not want me back with him - I got caught within his lies. In the end, he got what he wanted.

Once, I wore Rufus' clothes ... just for him.
xfinal_heaven
Mar. 30th, 2008 08:20 pm (UTC)
. . . I'm sorry.
pwns_farplane
Mar. 30th, 2008 08:22 pm (UTC)
I feel more remorseful for you. This is not the first time he has done this.
xfinal_heaven
Mar. 30th, 2008 08:24 pm (UTC)
. . . I should have realized sooner. I don't deserve your pity, I just . . . I should have known. It was Rufus. He could never really try to become a better person, and he never will.
pwns_farplane
Mar. 30th, 2008 08:29 pm (UTC)
... Children are odd things.
excelloneesama
Mar. 30th, 2008 08:00 pm (UTC)
...Suppose now isn't the best time to say "They have to want to change" is it?
xfinal_heaven
Mar. 30th, 2008 08:04 pm (UTC)
You're right. It's silly to think he'd want to.
excelloneesama
Mar. 30th, 2008 08:05 pm (UTC)
...I'm sorry.
xfinal_heaven
Mar. 30th, 2008 08:08 pm (UTC)
You don't have anything to apologize for.
excelloneesama
Mar. 30th, 2008 08:14 pm (UTC)
Well, you know seeing these kind of things happen is just...depressing. I feel terrible for you really.
xfinal_heaven
Mar. 30th, 2008 08:17 pm (UTC)
. . . I'll be okay. I won't give him the satisfaction of seeing me upset.
excelloneesama
Mar. 30th, 2008 08:19 pm (UTC)
Well if you're sure.
xfinal_heaven
Mar. 30th, 2008 08:20 pm (UTC)
I am. Thanks.
excelloneesama
Mar. 30th, 2008 08:26 pm (UTC)
You're welcome.
And I know we haven't talked much but if you ever need anything you can ask me, Tifa.
xfinal_heaven
Mar. 30th, 2008 08:28 pm (UTC)
. . . Thank you, Excellen. That means a lot.
excelloneesama
Mar. 30th, 2008 08:33 pm (UTC)
Anything for a friend~.
godisagirl
Mar. 30th, 2008 08:30 pm (UTC)
Eh? What's wrong Neesan?
xfinal_heaven
Mar. 30th, 2008 08:31 pm (UTC)
Nothing, Haruhi, don't worry. Things just haven't been going very good, is all. It'll get better, you don't have anything to worry about.
godisagirl
Mar. 30th, 2008 08:43 pm (UTC)
Well, if you need any cheering up, call on the SOS Brigade!
xfinal_heaven
Mar. 30th, 2008 08:46 pm (UTC)
Will do! Thanks.
emo_with_a_gun
Mar. 30th, 2008 10:33 pm (UTC)
You seem upset...

I suppose now it's my turn to offer my services. If you wish to talk...just say so.
sandy_requiem
Mar. 31st, 2008 03:44 am (UTC)
Mmm, I disagree. They can change, but they have to want to. It it not something that can be forced upon them.

Though if you need someone to talk to, I'm more than willing to provide an ear. I have a feeling I know who you're referring to.
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